Vulnerable.

       Being alone is a safe state of being. When you are alone no one can reject you and no one can judge you. I have the ability to isolate my feelings from people to keep me from caring too much, but I've found that I cannot isolate myself from you. I build up emotional barriers as a failsafe to keep me from becoming attatched, but I cant seem to keep my guard up anymore. There is an icy grip I keep on my heart, but I feel it melting right from under me. You are a carefree man who never asks anything of me but time. There are no expectations or uneccesary pressures that bind me to you. You are the quietest and most humble person I've ever met and it bewilders me that I find you so captivating. I did not plan this or expect it to happen, but here you are tossed in my path. I could not plan to meet someone like you, someone so kind and tolerable, someone I can stand. I feel like there must be something wrong with me to feel like this, I feel like I have no controll over how I feel and that I may explode at any second. As much as I hate being so vulnerable, it brings me a comfortable happiness hoping you might feel as vulnerable as I do too.