Electricity.

     In a matter of moments your entire persepctive can change. It is not an easy thing to face you weakness, but you have become my biggest strength. You are my comfort, my hope, my home. You are the one who broke my mold. I could have never planned this I could have never guessed that you would be the one I would choose. I never wanted anything so badly as I want this. I want you, our house, our name, our kids. I want everything I never thought I'd concider. You took my bitterness and blew it away. I was lonely, lost, and angry before you finally found me. A friend from afar I must admit I didn't know your intentions but I came over that day reguardless. You were shy and sweet, something unexpected. As we spent more time together I grew to you. I let go of all of my barriers, all of my expectations, and all of my past and just let you in completely. You did the same accepting me and from then I knew it would be you that i was going to be with forever.
     I never opened myself completely, never talked seriously about a future. But I loved pretending so much with you, imagining our life that imaginations were ideas that bloomed to desire. I want this life with you. I want all of it. From the bills to sharing a bathroom to sex to wedding plans. I want to grow old and still feel like this. I want to travel, adventure, and one day have kids. I never wanted this before.
     I see how much I love you everyday starting with the first thought when I wake up wishig you were here. I picked out my wedding dress and all I could think about was the look on your face when you see me standing there. I hope you are breathless. I hope it feels like the first time you have ever seen me. I want to be your prize, you're love for life, you're source of joy, your perfect wife.
    
     A year ago I could not have guessed it would be you that would give me this happiness. All of my doubts fell to the ground the day you blushed when I held your hand.
     When i thought you were going to kiss me for the first time we were at your house and we were outside. You were kidding but you cornered me to the wall, close to my face you smiled and then let me go. I turned to red and the hairs stood up on my neck, my arms and my chest. You didnt even touch me and i didnt get my kiss, but I still felt the electricity flow through us. Before we even had put it together I could feel it. And I wanted you like I have never wanted anyone before.
     You didn't kiss me for weeks after that, but I was okay just holding your hand. We would have sleepovers and watch movies all night, fall asleep barely touching then wake with daylight. It felt like first love's light on my brow every day I realized you wanted me as well. One night we were together we fell asleep nose to cheek and for some odd reason we both would awake and our lips to meet. That night in that moment as we fell back to sleep I'd think it was a dream if I hadn't woken up and you were holding me. In a sigh of assurance I woke up to find I wanted to feel this way for the rest of my life.