Pray.

    You want nothing more than to close your eyes and let the feelings fade, but this means more to me than I can grasp. The memories echo as I sit in my room. It is an unsettling thing to face reality and learn to prioritize. It hurts to give up hope for a situation and promptly move foreward. Sometimes I just want to stay in greif and accept punishment. Life is not fair by any means, and luck has little to do with anything. You must learn to put yourself first and allow yourself to not get stuck in any rut. Self-empowerment is a very influential force, you have more controll than you realize. I am strong. I am moving foreward. I am independent.
     Its okay to be alone. You can learn alot about yourself by just sitting in your room soaking up your own thoughts. I have spoken previously about medatation but now I am going to a less understood means of channeling emotions. Many people think prayer is only for religious persons but I beleive it is for everybody. When you feel out of controll of a situation christians encourage prayer to seek help from God. For us unaffiliated with religious culture we pray to gain insight. Putting yourself in 3rd person and assessing a situation through the eyes of an outside source gives you new persepective on the problem enabling you with different ideas on how to deal.
     Prayer is in itself a form of medatation. When you pray you allow for God to act as an recycling bin for all of your hopes, wishes, thoughts, worries, and cares. It is soothing to allow yourself to verbally admit to fault and ask for forgiveness, but sometimes we forget to forgive ourselves. Making your heart right will clear your head and allow you to regrow.


     I am not saying I am close minded to God because I see how blessed I am every day. I beleive that religion is now a clouded, selfish, diluted, and corrupt version of what God intended for the institution of the Church to be. I cannot stand hyppocritical people. I also cannot stand people who shun 'sinners' or claim evil upon individuals who are different than what they beleive to be acceptable. Times have changed since the B.C. and I beleive that God will judge your heart and your works on the day of reconing. I have faith for the human race, I just beleive our world is misguided. If we all understood ourselves better we could then help to reshape our world into something beautiful. There is hope, but there are also so many versions of God that the religious war is worldwide leaving nothing left to beleive but your heart.
     There is so much hostility between religious branches even though they all beleive in a God. WHY? I beleive its all politics. Churches are the most expensive and highest grossing buissnesses across the world. WHY? God should be in your heart, you should not have to visit temple to remind him that you are still faithful. An allknowing God will not reach down and give you a pat on the back, and he would not want you to waste all your time mingling with only faithful people. God wants you to go to the sinners and be an influence on their lives. It makes me so mad how when I want to talk about religion it always turns to an arguement about repenting or I am completely ignored. Is there no tolerance left in the world?
    

The world would be a better place if we all knew where we stand in our selves.

 Dont just soak in everyone else's perspective, know yourself and what you stand for.

"If you dont stand for something you'll fall for anything." -SuckerPunch