Silence

        Medatation is known to help promote personal insight. Sitting in silence you dive into a peaceful place filled with your own visions of beauty and lights. I see violent colors and soft words. I see vivid reminders of hope. I see music and the structure of sound. In my silence there is static, a sound I cannot shake. It will not be quiet. It will not subdue. I cannot drown out the numbness or the texture of the sound, like grinding teeth.
       In my dreams I am always alone and content. When another person tries to take me away chaos breaks loose destroying my perfect world. It could be the nicest of people trying to take me somewhere better, but here is the only place i want to be. I don't care that things could be better, because I am where I want to be. It may not be perfect but it is my world.
       Sometimes I do have other people in my dreams, but I never see any faces. Everyone is the same except for their voices, I dream of comforting words ive never been given or sometimes of specific memories. I see myself in the best of situations and the worst when my imagination runs. Sometimes I dream of passion, and sometimes torture.
       So many thoughts and so many dreams float around when silence takes over. I love the sound, and to listen through it. Even on a still night you can hear life softly in it's silence. Call me odd, but i think each sound and word is a blessing. It is a blessed thing to hear and observe. And it is a blessed thing to make your own life noise.

       Even on a still night you breathe heavily and your heart beats. You are blessed. Listen harder if you dont beleive me. Listen so hard you can hear yourself think and let the silence consume you. Let your own music find you.